Sunday, November 30, 2025

God's timing

“The way of fools seems right to them, but the wise listen to advice.” – Proverbs 12:15

November 21, 2025, I suffered a heart attack. Let me explain how this went down. On a Thursday evening, we went out to dinner with our life group, and we ate at Sakura steak house. I ate some mild spicy foods as I would normally do, think Wasabi and ginger sauce. That night after going to bed I had a case of what I thought was heartburn, so I got up twice to take some antacid tablets. Pain subsided and on Friday I had a visit with my new primary care doctor to discuss blood work results from previously in the week. I did not mention the “heartburn” episode for the previous night as I did not think it was relevant. I left the doctor’s office and while driving started to have the worse case of heartburn while feeling nauseated and a small pain in my left arm. I told Jayne that I really feel heartburn, again thinking it was wasabi. As we were grocery shopping, I started to eat some of the food out of the cart to combat the nausea. Pushed through the pain and about an hour later felt a bit better. We discussed going to the emergency room but again thinking heartburn. Now I know I have been told that heartburn is a sign of a heart attack but being a little scared and a little stubborn I really chose not to go to ER.

That night again had heartburn in bed again while taking antacid tablets. Saturday was a normal day then Saturday night another episode of heartburn. Jayne and I sat up in bed from 2 am to about 330am researching. Again, I chose not to go to ER. Got up Sunday morning at 630, showered, went to church, after church visited friends then went to have supper with Colton for his birthday. We went back to Heather and Trevor’s house for pie and to visit with family. All day long I felt a dull ache in my chest along with being tired. Jayne and I discussed again going to the ER, but I wanted to get through this day for Colton. Driving home we called Brielle who is a nurse, and she said I should err on the side of caution and go in.

I will give thanks to you, Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of all your wonderful deeds.  I will be glad and rejoice in you; I will sing the praises of your name, O Most High. Psalm 9:1-2 

So, instead of driving straight to the ER we drove home to pack a bag and change into comfy clothes. (ER’s are always cold.) Around 930 pm we arrived at the ER and were seen immediately. Once into the treatment room, nurses Courtney and Bailey were exceptional. We joked and got to know one another. These ladies were very special. After about an hour of getting poked and prodded the ER Doctor came in and said because of my enzyme levels he was activating the catheterization laboratory. (Apparently, they did not have anyone on duty in the lab.)

Right around midnight the nurses rolled me into the Cath Lab to do Cardiac catheterization. As they were preparing me for the procedure, I recall that I really wanted to ask the team if I could pray for them. But Doctor Prasad and his team were working purposefully, and I decided to just pray silently for them. I was totally calm and was not once concerned about how this would turn out. I was twilight sedated, think a good afternoon nap. Because I was never fully sedated, I would often hear the team talking during the procedure and I was thinking, wow what professionalism.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor:  If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up.  Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone?  Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

They found 3 blockages, one at 100%, one at 95% and one at 55-60%. They installed a stent in the 95% blockage (OM1) and angioplasty the 55-60% blockage. The vein at 100% was collateral and was left alone.

After the procedure, as they were transporting me to the Cardiac Intensive Care Unit for recovery, I saw Jayne, Heather, and Jeff. This was around 2 am Monday morning. I was shocked to see Heather and Jeff but not surprised. Jeff did tell me he had to stretch the truth to gain access to the waiting room. He told them I was his adopted brother. Not totally a lie, as we are brothers in Christ. I remember thinking I am glad Jayne had someone with her. They escorted me to ICU and stayed with me until about 330 am.

“Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: if either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them.” – Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

I got about 2 hours of sleep before the parade of doctors and nurses began. My ICU nurse was John and again my experience with him was nothing short of quality care and friendship. He told me that I would be on bed rest for at least 4 hours post-surgery.  I was wanting to get up and walk to the bathroom. He told me that as soon as we were able, he would get me up to walk. Around this time, he told me that I could not have bacon or a Coke.  What? This was an arbitrary statement, having to do with nothing at the time.

Jayne and Heather came back at 730 am and a bit later my Pastor and my friend Jim came to visit. I stayed in the ICU for about 14 hours, in which I was visited by multiple doctors and other medical professionals. Each person that I encountered was truly friendly and provided me with very good care.

Around 2 pm I got off bedrest and John immediately got me up and took me for a walk. A while later I was looking at the menu to place a lunch order and in walks John with a phone saying, hey I got the kitchen on the phone, and they want to know if you are going to order lunch. I said yes and said I’ll take a BLT. He just rolled his eyes and flatly said NO BACON! We laughed and settled on a turkey sandwich.

At that time, I was moved into a regular room, where we met our son Bryan, wife Ashley, their children Jackson and Claire. As we were settling in Courtney and Bailey walked in to check on me. Like I said before these ladies were nothing short of exceptional. We again joked and they told me that since we had such a good time the night before they wanted to keep the party going. Thank you, ladies, you do not know how much this meant to me.

“Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.” – 1 Thessalonians 5:11

Bryan, Ashley, Heather, Jackson and Claire stayed until around 400 pm. After that Jayne and were finally alone talking about the events and I learned some things from her that the doctors told her. I ordered supper and we sat and talked. Around 630, Jeff and Tari walked in.  Again, these are dear friends, and we learned it was their anniversary. They left their dinner with their family and came to visit me. I was and am very touched. We visited for about an hour and a half in which we went for a walk around the hospital and generally just enjoyed the fellowship.

After Jayne, Jeff and Tari left I was exhausted and settled in my bed while my evening nurses stopped by and I asked them when they made their rounds during the night if I was sleeping, please do not wake me. However, I was to get my vitals taken at midnight and again at 530 am. Those were the only times I was awakened. Overall, a good night’s rest.

My nurse came by to visit around 615 Tuesday morning and pulled up a chair. We talked about the events, and she told me that I was a lucky man after reading my charts. She also told me that I was not on the discharge list for today but most likely for Wednesday. No problem I said, I assumed the cardiologists wanted me there 48 hours after the procedure.

Jayne showed up around 730 as she wanted to get there early so she could also talk with any doctors that came by. A short time later Quentin and Susan stopped by for a visit to which Quentin brought me a book to read. They visited for about an hour and when they were leaving Jayne and I walked them out. (Jayne and I decided that after each visitor, we would walk them to the elevators.)

A little later Sam comes to visit me. Sam is the kindest soul I know, I love him dearly and he reminds me so much of my grandfather. At the same time the attending physician comes in and thinks that maybe I can come home today because I am progressing nicely. I told him that my cardiologist wanted me to stay 48 hours after the procedure. He said he would talk with them. Again, these medical professionals were truly that professional.

“Heal the sick who are there and tell them, ‘The kingdom of God has come near to you.'” – Luke 10:9

Very soon after they left Becky arrives for a visit. Jayne and I are blessed to have a great church family. Y’all mean so much more to me than just being friends.

After Becky left my cardiologists came in to discuss the procedure and results. As we were having the conversation she said I could be released today and she would discuss with my attending physician about the discharge. From previous experience I knew this was going to be a while.  So around 4pm we get the boot.

I received many phone calls, text messages and emails. After we got home and the week progressed we had friends who stopped by the house and even brought us supper. To that I want to say thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

Now why do I tell you all these details? Even though these doctors and nurses were simply amazing this was all God, because He orchestrated all these events and put the right people in the right times for me. He also gave me complete calmness during the entire process. Never once did I feel worried, overwhelmed or uneasy. I was totally calm.

My God is good and never leaves me. He protects me, He puts me in situations for His benefit and His glory. I can only say that I knew He was there with me and He never left my side. He never left Jayne alone; He was there to comfort her. As I look back on these events, I am in awe at what God can accomplish.

 Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6

It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed. Deuteronomy 31:8

Now let me digress a bit. Back in August Bryan had an episode where he visited the ER, to which nothing serious developed. His follow up visit was with Doctor Prasad. They were discussing family history; he told Bryan I’ll guarantee that your father has a blockage. Guess who my cath lab doctor was? Yep, the same!

You could say all this is coincidental, but with God there are no coincidences.

Romans 8:28 And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

YHWH, I thank You for Your presence, Your guidance, and for preparing everything for Your glory. I am deeply grateful for the comfort and strength Your presence brings each day. Your wisdom helps me navigate challenges with patience and hope, reminding me of greater purpose beyond my understanding. Thank You for providing opportunities to learn and grow, and for allowing me to witness Your works in my life and those around me. May my actions continue to reflect Your glory and honor all that You have prepared. Amen.

 

Monday, June 9, 2025

Religion or faith (Aren't they the same?)

It seems odd to have to say that too much religion is a bad thing.

We certainly cannot get too much of God, cannot get too much faith and obedience, cannot get too much love and worship. But religion— which is defined as: a cause, principle, or system of beliefs held to with zeal and faith, which is the well-intentioned efforts we make to "get it all together" for God, can very well get in the way of what God is doing for us. The main and central action is everywhere and always what God has done, is doing, and will do for us. Jesus is the revelation of that action. Our main and central task is to live in responsive obedience to God's action revealed in Jesus. Our part in the action is the act of faith.


But more often than not we become impatiently self-important along the way and decide to improve matters with our two cents' worth. We add on, we supplement, we embellish. But instead of improving on the purity and simplicity of Jesus, we dilute the purity, clutter the simplicity. We become meticulously religious, or obsessively religious. In other words, we get in the way.

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.  For by it the people of old received their commendation. By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things that are visible. Hebrews 11:1-3 ESV

"What’s the difference between religion and faith?"

All God asks is that you place your trust in the saving power of His Son Jesus, that you turn away from your sins and surrender your life to Him.

If you answered religion and faith are interchangeable, you would be mistaken as they are two very different things. Religion is the practice and traditions of a belief. Faith is the heart of our beliefs and actions. It is all about being in a relationship with our heavenly Father, trusting Him, speaking with Him, and sharing His salvation with the world.

YHWH I come before You asking for wisdom to discern the difference between following  a cause, principle, or system of beliefs and following You. LORD give me wisdom to place my trust in Your son Jesus, the one true King of Heaven and Earth, and surrender my life to Him.


Monday, June 2, 2025

In Jesus Name

 “Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father. Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask me anything in my name, I will do it.” John‬ ‭14‬:‭12‬-‭14‬ ‭

Demons don't tremble just because you said "in Jesus' name".

They've heard His name before. They've seen it misused, mishandled, and thrown around by people who never truly surrendered to it.

What makes them tremble is when they recognize that you've actually been walking with Him...When your life carries evidence of intimacy with Him...When Heaven is not just in your vocabulary, but literally in your veins....

When they see that you're not just name-dropping the King of Kings but you're also backed by Him.

Because when you've been in the secret place... When you've been tried and tested, crushed and consecrated, His presence goes with you.

And that's what demons respond to.

Not the sound of His name alone... but that undeniable authority that comes from having a real relationship with the Lord, from being submitted to Him daily, a life that's been sealed in covenant not just with words, but with wounds. A life laid down, surrendered in the secret place, proven in the fire, and marked by obedience when no one was clapping. A life that didn't just say yes to Jesus, but stayed yes when it cost everything.

That's why they tremble.

They don't bow to noise. They bow to the One you're walking with. And when they recognize who sent you?

They don't argue. They leave... expeditiously!

“Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you had known me, you would have known my Father also. From now on you do know him and have seen him.”” John‬ ‭14‬:‭6‬-‭7‬ ‭

Monday, May 26, 2025

Resurrection Sunday

Resurrection Sunday or Easter, we reach the culmination of Holy Week. The resurrection of Jesus Christ is the most important event of the Christian faith. The very foundation of all Christian doctrine hinges on the truth of this account.

Early Sunday morning, several women (Mary Magdalene, Joanna, Salome, and Mary the mother of James) went to the tomb and discovered that the large stone covering the entrance had been rolled away. An angel announced:

"Don't be afraid! I know you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He isn't here! He is risen from the dead, just as he said would happen." Matthew 28:5-6

Lord Jesus, Just as You rose from the dead, I ask that You raise me from the things that keep me bound—sin, fear, and doubt. Let the same power that brought You back to life work in me, transforming my heart, mind, and spirit. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit and guide me in Your truth. In Your name, I pray, Amen.

Monday, May 19, 2025

Good Friday

There is a stark contrast between Palm Sunday and Good Friday, between the crowds shouting “Hosanna!” and “Crucify him!” 

We are all familiar with the events of Good Friday but did you realize the day started with a kiss?

Jesus Arrested 

Matthew 26:47-50

47 While he was still speaking, Judas, one of the Twelve, arrived. With him was a large crowd armed with swords and clubs, sent from the chief priests and the elders of the people.

48 Now the betrayer had arranged a signal with them: “The one I kiss is the man; arrest him.”

49 Going at once to Jesus, Judas said, “Greetings, Rabbi!” and kissed him.

50 Jesus replied,  “Do what you came for, friend.”Then the men stepped forward, seized Jesus and arrested him.

Friday started with a kiss. 

David Crowder wrote Surely We Can Change the first lyrics are:

And the problem is this: 
We were bought with a kiss 
But the cheek still turned 
Even when it wasn't hit.
And I don't know 
What to do with a love like that 
And I don't know 
How to be a love like that.

Judas comes and acts like a friend. He had told them the sign would be a kiss, which is still a common greeting in the Middle East. A slave would kiss the master’s feet. A servant would kiss the master’s hand. Friends would kiss each other’s cheek and close friends would embrace and kiss both cheeks. It was a sign of close affection and love. I don’t know about you, but that is hard for me to grasp. 

Heavenly Father, You are the symbol of love, mercy, and grace. You extend Your arms wide to embrace all who seek You, regardless of our past. Yet, as I ponder the actions of Judas, I am reminded of the fragility of loyalty and the darkness that can dwell within the human heart. I ask for Your forgiveness, Lord, for the times I have betrayed You through my own choices. In moments of weakness, when I have chosen convenience over commitment, I have kissed You with my lips while my heart wandered elsewhere. Amen

Monday, May 12, 2025

Beginning


2 Peter 3:9 The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.


I recently listened to a song that talks about the Bible in a different light.


The chorus goes:


And I read the holy books and I poured through the pages 

Upon a closer look, I had a revelation 

Yeah, I noticed there's a trend 

The world keeps spinning 

We've been talking 'bout the end ever since the beginning


Yep, I never really thought about the Bible in that light. We have been talking about the end ever since the beginning! 


But, our God is patient. He wants no one to fall away from Him. So he gives us a new beginning each day to stay with Him. 


Yet the sun comes up again 

Yet the sun comes up again 

Someday we'll all look up and pray for love to change us 

Find the courage to be kind and then 

…., maybe we ain't finished


Yeah, maybe 

This is just the beginning 

The beginning 

The beginning, yeah


We need to seek God daily, ask Him to grant us a new beginning. 


This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." - Psalm 118:24


YHWH - I thank You for all you’ve done for me, my salvation and Your provision. Restore to me the joy of knowing You. Renew my faith when I feel weak. Fill me with Your Spirit and help me trust You again. Thank You for not giving up on me and restoring my joy. Amen. 

Monday, May 5, 2025

Seeing bad people thrive

 Seeing bad people thrive

How often do we see folks getting away with things that they shouldn’t be. It can be a frustrating reality that the wicked often prosper, and the righteous often suffer. This seems unfair. The righteous try to live God’s way. The wicked reject God and live their own way. And yet… the wicked often seem to have it better than the righteous.


If you have ever been punished for doing the right thing, if you’re a good guy who seems to always finish last. 


Psalm 37 tells us how to manage that. 


1 “Do not fret because of those who are evil or be envious of those who do wrong; 


2 for like the grass they will soon wither, like green plants they will soon die away. 


3 Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. 


4 Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. 


5 Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: 


6 He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn, your vindication like the noonday sun. 


7 Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.” 


8 “Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil.”


Psalm ‭37‬:‭1‬-‭8


Lord, forgive me for the times that I have allowed the wicked ways of the ungodly to disturb my rest in You. Keep me from anxious thoughts, and may I learn to be still in Your presence, to rest in Your love, and to wait patiently for You to act, knowing that You work all things together for my benefit and for Your glory. In Jesus' name I pray, AMEN.